Confession...

I feel like being manipulated with someone closed... Why should they do this to me? I must confess here, am so sad each time it happen... I really wonder when is the time I can truly be happy like others? Yes, am fake now... All these while, people thought that am happy... Always happy... But the fact is you never know what is inside... ;( No one knows... I must say, Bie maybe rite, I don't have choice... I need to hold on... hold on... and hold on... but until when? Hopefully not until I closed my eyes forever... Hope one day Allah give me chance to be free from this problem... I am really bored with this kind of situation.. Really am... But now, all I need to do is just to be strong... for my babies, and my hubby. Even tho I am not really sure how long I can take this anymore... It really killing me inside... Please you pray for me... pray Allah make it easy for me, pray I can own a pure happiness.. without need me to WALK AWAY from them...

Life Saver...

Today busy sket, masuk office sebab ade meeting... Lameee tak dtg dah... Rindu biskot and nescafe... Rinduuu meja... Rindu kengkawan... Rindu lunchtime.... Rinduuu gaji.. Weihh bile la gaji nak masuk ni... Sengkek dah ni... =( Okeh okeh lari topic... Ni nak citer, today my life saver came to save my life.. Apelah cakap putar belit ni...??? ;P Semakin hari kian membuncit, dan dont have time to shop for maternity jeans... So sgt limited seluar yg bleh digunakan... Gune je few pants yang beli mase pregnantkan Zaim dulu... Sebabnye jeans sekarang ni masih muat cume bile duduk tu tak comfort kalo button... Tu yang malas nak beli.. Plus bukan kua umah sgt pun skg ni kan... So setelah sekian lameeeeee menanti penuh kesabaran... Akhirnya, BellyBelt sudah tibaaaa.. Sangat happy!!! Pasni tayah la tekial button and unbutton my jeans before and after in the car.. Hee tak senonoh ini budak kan... Tak zip seluar dalam kete!!!! Hahah... Yelah kalo kua makan, surela makin sendat perut tu... ;P But now tidak lagi... Sangat seronok pakai jeans even kat rumah... Senang la kalo nak gi makan ke, amik Zaim ke, gi kedai ke, gi minum ke... Anytime Bie call, am ready to go... Heee... If dah mandi lah... hahaha... Tau jelah keje dari rumah pagi2 buta ni.. Mandi pun bile dah tengahhari... Sekali lagi tak senonoh di sini.. AdikBoy jangan tiru Mommy ek.. Mommy taper Mommy busy keje, busy buat keje-keje rumah... ;P AdikBoy kene rajin mandi macam Abang Zaim... Yang Mommy buat ni, saje nak kasik teladan supaya AdikBoy tak ikut.. Hehehe... Alasaaaaaannnn lagik ;P

Btw, sayang sgt BellyBelt.. It just great for me... Worth it! ^_^

Low Blood Pressure...

Lately, I always feel weak and dizzy... Tu pasal menyepi... Pening aje... Tade energy... To be truth, I don't have many works pun last two weeks ni... Bleh kate melepak jelah kat umah, fix program situ sini sejam dua je... Pastu goyang kaki... Ade le keje-keje documentation tapi ala-ala malas gitu... Tapi my energy mcm selalu abih... Zero abih... Tambah lagi nak melayan si Zaim bile dia dah balik nursery... Ngeee... Memang laa rase penat yang amat... Worst ade hari tu, kene pulak sakit perut, diarrhea (sebab makan A&W rasenye... tu kan ade branch baru bukak kat J*sco Seti*wangsa... buat waffle keras cam biskot... Toksah datang situ..connie dog dia pun buat sakit perut... ) Lagi laa rase nak tumbang... So pergila check up si AdikBoy sekali, alang-alang nak mintak ubat sakit perut tu kan... Alhamdulillah, AdikBoy okay... ;) AdikBoy happy bersilangkaki, melambai2 Mommy mase scan tu... ;) But Mommy punye blood pressure low la pulak... Since last month actually... From what I read, it's normal je pun... Tak perlu risau ape-ape... Orang pregnant normal la low blood pressure ni... Ade yang high jugak kot... Depends... Maybe I dehydrate kot sebab selalu rase pening especially bile bangun dari duduk or bangun dari tidur... Maybe Mommy kene lebih banyak minum air, lebih banyak exercise, lebih banyak amik healthy food and dan garam and all lah. Too many too list... Sungguh tak best rase pening2 ni... Sebab banyak mende nak buat actually bile kat umah ni... Time free tade keje ni kan... Tapi dek kerane pening, sudahnye I only menggelepek atas katil... Lagi lah rase tak bermaya... Segala to-do-list masih lagi to-do-list... Tak buat ape pun.... Cemane ek nak normal kan balik blood pressure ni... supaya lebih bertenaga? Adekah dengan memiliki dengan Si Parker.... atau maybe Si Sabrina....

Hikhikhikihk... mau kene lepuk ngan Bie nanti... ;P Tapi kalo kene lepuk pastu dapat salah satu ni, I rela... hehehe... Tapi seriyes la memang suke bangat dengan both of them... ^_^ Menikam kalbu sungguh!

Walopun am not so stable kan, but these two weeks I sangat happy dapat berdating2 ngn Bie... Lepas lah tengok Confession of Shopaholic and Fast and Furious. Dedua movie tengok on Wednesday, pay less... heheh... Plan for movie marathon in one day tapi time tak mengizinkan so terpakse la drag tengok satu movie in a week. Shopaholic memang wajib tengok. I kan peminat... Betul... The only novels yang I bought and read... Kalo novel lain tak pernah di beli.. Kalo try beli pun gerenti tak bace... Buku bace I bukan I yang bace... hahaah... Saje buat tolak duit income tax... Hah? Tak caye I do read??? Ni buktinye... ;) Bie tu konon jadi fan Sophie Kinsella kat Facebook.. Tipu betul.. Hahaha sinopsis buku tu pun tak penah bace... ;P

Heh baru perasan.. bile selongkar balik buku2 ni.. Ade 2 missing la pulak... Confession of Shopaholic and Undomestic Goddess... Alaaaa... ;( maneee laaa budak 2 org ni nyuruk ni... tsk tsk tsk... Harus beli balik ni walopun bukan nak bace lagi pun... Rase cam incomplete le pulak... But rasenye I enjoy more bace buku dia dari tengok movie ni... Minah tu plastic sket lah... Tak macam dalam buku tu... Tu je la yang tak best... Rasenye actress yang sesuai utk watak ni kene ala-ala Sandra Bullock ke Julia Roberts ke... Sempoi habis... Tapi mamat tu, hensem abis laa... Tak tau la dia ni kalo tengok movie lain tadela cair sgt pun... But in this movie macam best gile, kene sgt watak Luke macam dalam buku... Comel! *Cop cop.. Bie pon comel gaks ok... (Kang ade yang majukss laks.. ;P)

Cute kan mamat ni... ^_^

And cerite Fast & Furious pulak memang citer Bie.. Wajib jugak tengok. This time in my opinion sgt ganas dan sgt kurang pasal race.. Kirenye ade jalan citer la jugak... And sebab kete-kete dalam movie tu sangat laju... maka satu kete pon susah nak cam... But memang best la jugak.. ;)

And more to add, this week dapat makan sushi jugaks... Actually memang craving nak makan sushi tapi tade time sgt, and orang pun duk advise jangan makan raw food kan… But sekali bleh la kan kire halal.. hehe.. Kang meleleh air liur AdikBoy… cheh alasaaaaan… ;P Tapi Mommy tak makan la yang raw sgt pun… Yang penting dapat makan Kodomo Bento, Edamame, Salmon Steak, Ebikko, Maki Sushi.. Huuuishh makan tak ingat jugak tu… ;P Kalo ade rezeki, time and skill, memang teringin nak buat sendiri… Ahaks.. Bileee laaa tu… ;P

*isk aku ni, nak update blog punye la payah.. pastu dah update 4 batu tak benti... ;P

Mommy tagged mommy...

Ish ish ish... fuh fuh fuh... berhabuk! bersawang sudah blog ni... mane le tuan dia ye... nak kate sibuk rase nye tak dela sibuk mane... cume fully occupied kot and kesihatan tak mengizinkan untuk update blog... (macam la update blog ni perlukan kudrat macam mop lantai... hehehe.. alasan lagikk... ) Ade dah actually entry nak post but separuh jalan je simpan dalam draft sampai nak berkarat.. hahah... ape-ape pun meh la kite buat tag dulu.. Ampon Izu.. Dah basi dah ye tag ni... Dah lame buat tak post je... Betulllll... I tak tipu... hehe...

• Admit one thing you feel awful about (involving being a mom). Once you have written it down, you are no longer allowed to feel bad. Remember you are a good mom!

Hoho.. it really reminds me a couple of months back, one day tu, am so tired, and that time my workload piling up, sume nak dateline. I worked like hell 6am til morning again. Time tu tak kenal matahari dan bulan. Just stop to eat, bath and taking care of Zaim bile balik nursery… Tido pun 2-3 hours jee… Then as usual, few months back kalo balik nursery Zaim akan cranky sebab sleepy, sebab kat nursery memang Zaim tak tido… Dia bukan bleh ade bunyi skit, lagi kalo ade suare kids.. Memang ala-ala memanggil dia main jela… So biase bile balik umah, kdg2 it takes only 5 minutes je nak tidokan dia… Tapi that day tu, kebetulan Babah busy, and I tried to put him on bed for almost 4 hours! Bile dah give up, I let him play, tapi tula kan dah ngantuk, mengamuk jelah serba tak kena… Tidokan balik tamo tido pulak… Repeated few times keluar masuk bilik. Jadi time tu Mommy sangat penat melayan dia. Mommy marah Zaim sampai dia nangis sebab dia main2 tanak tido pastu ngamuk2 tak tentu pasal sebab Mommy dah tak tau lagi cemane nk pujuk dia… Zaim pulak tak suke kene marah sebab Mommy jarang la nk marah2 dia, so dia sedih and nak tepuk muke Mommy bertubi2 dengan tangan debab tu... aduhaiii macam nak patah hidung Mommy, protes la tu… Mommy pun tetiba naik geram, terus babab tangan dia.. Lagi la dia nangis2 kuat2… Bile dia nangis, mula muntah. 2 kali Mommy tukar baju dia, bedsheet lagi tu.. Mane nak bilas muntah2 tu lagi… So sgt tension time tu… Lepas dah setel bersih2 sume Mommy continue tidokan Zaim... Mommy ignore je dia bile dia ajak sembang… Dia cuba la nak pujuk Mommy kot sebab Mommy masam jee… Jenuh dia senyum cium2 balik Mommy tapi Mommy diam je... Mommy selawat-selawat sampai dia tido… And bile dia dah tido tu… Kesian pun ade… Zaim time tu actually tak sedap badan. Sakit tekak, itu agaknye dia serba tak kena… But Mommy pulak too exhausted… Mengalir jugak la airmata ku bile tengok dia dah tertido tu… Kesian pulak dia tadi... Esoknye Zaim bangun ceria macam tade ape, peluk-peluk manja… tapi Mommy masih lagi regret and sedih sampai 2 3 jugak la hari sebab marah Zaim malam tu… Bukan ape Zaim jarang merengek mengade camtu… Selalu dia camtu pun sebab demam or tak sihat. Tapi Mommy pulak takleh nak handle time tu sebab tengah berserabut kepale… Then tobat dah tanak marah Zaim sebab tanak tido. But now skg Zaim dah besar, dia tau bile dia nak sleep… So tadela nak berperang sangat =) Hihi malu la actually nak ngaku cerite ni... Teruk je rase...

• List 7 things you love about your kids, you love doing with your kids, or that your kids love about you.

1. Dia sangat active, cergas dan ligat. Semua yang jumpe Zaim kate, memang Zaim ni tak stop moving. Demam ke masuk ward ke tahap bergerak tetap same.
2. Jarang nak merengek or menangis. Sebab tu Mommy tak berape reti nak handle kalo dia sekali sekale merengek time demam… Merengek serba tak kena tu… Even dari kecik neighbor sume tertanye-tanye, Zaim tak menangis ke… Tak penah dengar pun… Ade menangis, kalo jatuh ke ape ke, tapi just say a simple words like“Sape buat Zaim?” Dia akan stop. So easy! Kalo kene marah pun nangis kejap then melawak balik… Tak makan saman!
3. He refuses to take any junk food! Gooood Boy! Offer la chocolate ke sweet ke, sure dia say “Tanak!” Heheh.. Mommy tak pernah ajar… Cume Mommy memang tak pernah beli untuk Zaim kalo pergi kedai.. Kalo orang bagi, Mommy tak halang... But dia sendiri yang tanak makan mende2 manis ni… Kalo bagi rase pun sure terkelat2 muke dia.. He like healthy food, fruits, veggie - wajib adekayet (read: carrot) Kutip sume sayur dalam pinggan tuu..., yogurt and main course meal. Mommy offer ice-cream pun dia say tanak... ;P
4. Talking – I love to talk with him sekarang. Sangat pandai mengikut ape Mommy ajar, read or say. Any words I say, he can repeat the exact words… A sampai Z, 1 to 10, Alif sampai Kho... belum sampai Ya.. sume dia ikut... heheh... But tadela dia faham pun semuanya… Rase comel sangat dengar those words yang keluar dari mulut dia tu… And sekarang bleh di ajak bersembang… So, kat rumah biase Mommy duduk ngan Zaim sambil cakap-cakap ngan dia… Mulut dia pun memang tak benti… Kalo tak bercakap pun mulut dia akan menyanyi… Paling Mommy suke dia suke repeat ape Mommy cakap kat Babah... Contoh, kalo nak kejut Babah, dia akan cakap, "Bie, bangun Bie.. Bie.. Bie.."
5. Activity – I like to involve him in whatever I do. Selalunye Mommy ajak dia buat same-same... I let him help... Even kemas toy ke, sidai kain ke, anything, I sure let him join me tapi lipat kain susah sket, sebab ade orang tu, pergi letak balik kain Mommy lipat dalam bakul laundry.
6. Playtime - Zaim suke bile kene kejar… So kat rumah tu, semput Mommy main kejar2 ngan dia… Kalo Mommy tak larat, dia main kejar-kejar ngan kucing pulak… Mencicit laa si Black and Bella lari sebab takotkan Zaim… Ni Mommy dah boyot memang semput hari2 melayan dia main kejar2...
7. Outing - We just love to go outing during weekend or evening, pergi minum ke (mamam nana (makan goreng pisang or kuih )), makan ke, jalan-jalan ke, swimming ke… Kadang-kadang just naik kete je pusing2 tengok building, train, pokok, car, lorry and all. But sangat suke sebab time ni Zaim akan excited tanye, “Tu ape tuuu??” and bile kite jawab dia akan ingat terus… So indirectly Zaim learn new things too… … Hmm ade favourite words sekarang.. “Car! Ketepi, ketepi… Abam lalu lalu” Read: Car ketepi.. Abang nak lalu… Hehe itu bile tengok jalan sempit or traffic jammed or red light.. ;P Tapi Mommy tak berape suke dia cakap camtu... Tak polite.. So sekarang tengah ajar dia cakap "Excuse Me..." Favorite things to say: Babah Dwive (Drive), Masjid, Building, CCC (KLCC), Choo-Choo Twen, (Choo-Choo Train), House, Car, Lorry, Van, Bird, Pokok, Flower, Motor, Uncle, Aunty, Kakak, Abang, Bike, Dog, Ayam, Moon, Star, Kite, Wimming (Swimming), Red light, Green light, Yellow light, Lampu... And the latest he like to spell... ;)

• Send this to 5 other moms of the year that deserve a reminder that they too are the best moms that they can be. Remember to send them a note letting them know you have selected them, and also add a link to your post that directs people back to the person who nominated you.So the next 5 moms will be ....

hmmm.. ni I sgt leceh nak buat sebab kurang bersosial lah dalam blog ni... Sape2 yg bace tu, yang dah jadik mommy pastu blom buat tag ni sila amik ye... Jangan ngelat... Tuhan nampak.. heheehe..

Project Choo-Choo Train

Zaim sgt suke main kat Toy's department, kan ade Thomas punye rail track tu... Kalo duk situ sejam pun takpe... Then bile balik rumah terbawak2 memory tu, dia akan susun lee segala kereta, lorry and train dia kat rak TV. Maybe in his imagination, rak TV tu adelah rail track... Huhu kesian pun ade nak tergelak pun ade bile tengok cantik pulak tersusun kereta2 dia kat situ. Oh arini rak TV tu dah di hantar ke rumah Nenny satu lagi kat Sepang... Kalo tak bleh snap gambar kereta2 dia tersusun kat situ. So kesian punye pasal. Mommy decided buat mini rail track untuk Zaim. Huishhh kalo nak beli satu set Thomas punye tu rase memang tak mampu la kot... Lagipun with unpredictable mood si Zaim ni, kalo ngamuk, mau di balingnye sume kat dinding... Bukan ngamuk marah sape, marah toy yg dia tengah main tu... Agaknye la train and kereta tu tak mendengar arahan and kemahuan dia kot. ;P So kene carik yang murah sket to save cost and worth for this almost 2 years old boy. Unless Zaim dah 3 years old, berani la jugak Mommy nak invest kat Thomas complete set tu, sebab maybe time tu dia dah tak tantrum ke hape kan... Nanti AdikBoy pun bleh sambung main...

So, mase shopping groceries kat Tesco Mommy found one set of wood rail track, price around RM50. Hmmm buleh tahan jugak la kan, lagi la sume nye kayu... Memang tahan kalo di baling ke hape kan... So since this weekend Mommy quite free so Mommy buat la project Choo-Choo Train ni... Okay ini adelah barang-barang yang diperlukan. Step 1, tidurkan mamat yang bleh mengganggu construction... Heh memang tak jalan kalo ade ultraman sorang ni... Step 2, bile dah si dia dah tidur bleh la mengsusun atur all 56pieces set ni kat atas board... Hmm kalo ikut instruction dia memang besar jugak rail track ni, and tak berape sesuai sbb nanti susah nak alih and tade tempat pulak nak simpan... So kene la gunekan creativity tuka balik design track ni supaya lebih kecik. Agak2 dah cun, bleh la lekat satu per satu by double sided tape. Plan asal nak suh Babah lukis landscape tampal kat board tu tapi since Babah pun busy, taktau bile sempat, sebat jela dulu buat basic je..

And tadaaa... ini lah hasilnyee... And as expected, this rail track hanye bertahan 2 hari. Selepas itu, Ultraman datang menyerang dan duduk di atas city itu... Nampak gaya taleh gune double sided tape ye puan puan...Kene gune glue yang super kuat... ;P Yang kekal tinggal hanyelah rail track tu je, segala pokok, building, animals and people sudah tidak kelihatan lagi... Hahaha...

20 down 20 to go...

Hooray.... Today I just hit the halfway point before BiBoy pops out. Hmmm cepatnyeee mase berlalu... Perut pun semakin boyots... Eventho I still can fit my jeans but I have to admit it is uncomfortable to button my jeans. I guess it's time for maternity jeans or maybe I can use BellyBelt to solve this problem. Had ordered BellyBelt from online shopping website, but currently out of stock... tsk tsk tsk.. =(

Oh BTW, it is 4.17am. I did not sleep because, I had an early bed just now - tertido mase tidokan Zaim tadi. Zaim demam dah 2 hari... Alhamdulillah batuk selsema tade. Cuma badan tu kdg2 panas... Makan ubat demam tak berape jalan, so terpakse Mommy letak ubat montot tu... Baru dia bleh tdo lena... So sebab dia tak comfort Mommy pun tdola same2... Then kol 2am terjaga sebab Babah nak tido, and nak alih Zaim to his bed... And sampai laaa niii Mommy taleh nak lelap... *sigh... Plus AdikBoy pun kejut Mommy ajak main kot... Kekekek...

Ape ek nak buat... Sangap nye lah sorang2 tak tdo time ni... This weekend I don't need to work. Sume keje beres! Syok gile... House chore byk nak buat tapi tadela nak buat sekarang sebab sume org dah tido... Karang terbangun pulak sume org kat umah nanti terkejut tengok "Bibik" manela kemas umah pagi2 buta ni... Heheh...

On the other note, received call from maid agency. They told me that the maid that I had choose tu ade attitude problem mase training kat sane. So agent kat sane decided not to send her here. Huhu... sangat lega dapat agent yang telus cam ni...If not, I cant imagine the hassle nak handle maid tu nanti... So tadi pergi menilik2 calon maid for replacement... Haih... tu la kan, dah pilih yang background ok, perwatakan lembut, ade educational background pun bleh silap pilih jugak But siapalah kite nak menilai orang kan? Kene tawakal jelah harapnye second maid ni ok...

Semakin senang hati...

• Firstly, nak congratulate my cousin, Oja kat Jepun nun, telah selamat melahirkan baby boy yesterday. Sangat la happy! ;) Affan sudah ade adik... Ko rehat elok2 kat spital ok... Manual dah siap kan untuk kasik cik Abang ko... So dont worry, the boys will be okay kat rumah tu... ;P Cepat2 upload gambar tau and introduce kat kitorg second hero ko...

• Secondly, my workload dah settle, but still have new spec to do la.. standard la.. keje mane penah abih ye tak... Tapi yang sepatutnye siap before code freeze tu dah kawtim, dah legaaaa sgt.... And semakin saya senang hati, bile SRM lead kat sane, dah pun booked me for next phase... Awww.. terharunyeee bile dia cakap: "I responsible for SRM project. There is a big possibility we will continue to Phase 2, after go lives. There several other modules from SRM that we may implement. I like to have you as my offshore developer - cool??" Sangat puas hati okay bile functional consultant di sane appreciate my hardwork... Before this, cemane kite hempas pulas pun, jarang diorg appreciate, but this project sume nye baik-baik...I really love this project. Such a wonderful team I have. Tak pernah marah if am stuck anywhere, they put their confidence on me, and they really understand if I explain about the problem with the program and why I need time to solve it. Kalo project sebelum2 ni, we work as if the gun is direct to our head. Lambat? You die! Problem? Your job to solve. Serious tension... But I replied to them, I am actually pregnant my second child and the role might not suitable for me because it will only go live 2010. And I will have long maternity leave Aug-Oct... which I personally think it is unfair for them if I work sekerat2 kan... Unless they okay with that, am more than happy to work with them again.

• Time flies, Zaim's second birthday is only couple of months a head. I don't plan anything yet for him. Maybe a simple party at my house again. At nursery not yet sure if we will have another party there because, maybe time tu Zaim dah stay home with Bibik...A special gift for him? Not yet decided, but something that is very useful for him to learn.

• My sis in law wedding is also around the corner - 31'st May 2009. And saya sangat susah hati because, rumah baru my family in law still tak siap lagi. Bukan jauh pun kat Taman Melawati jugaks. Eventho, they had booked a wedding planner and all, I still think there are many to things tak setel. Mende kecik2 tu, sekarang memangla tak nampak, but later mesti kelam kabut. And looks like they only do it once they move in to the new house - which I dunno when! Hopefully, mid April. Dengan busy nak pindah nanti, nak beli furniture lagi and my project pulak go-live that time. Sangat serabut... ;( Time tu nanti saya dah boyot. Dengan nak handle Zaim, nak handle project. Agagagaga~

• Haritu, lagi saya susah hati sebab my mom kate nak renovate rumah. So, I will need to move to my family in law la kan... Tapi rase nye macam tak terdaya untuk berpindah randah time ni... Rumah in law, 2 tingkat, bertangga-tangga... Jadi perhatian perlu lebih kat Zaim yang selalu lari tak pandang depan. Dan again saya sangat sibuk with my work. Kalo in this house, single storey. Senang. Zaim jarang ke dapur unless with me. Most of the time, dia lepak kat hall, main kat hall. Toy sume kat hall. Tengok TV and tgk Barney kat laptop sambil me buat kerje kat hall jugak. Sangat senang nak monitor. And my room pun sebelah je hall ni. So kalo dia sleep and terjaga sgt senang nak tengok. I cant imagine myself naik turun tangga, to check him bile he sleep kat rumah in law. Zaim bukan bleh bunyi sket kiukkkk pun mesti terjaga, that's why dia tidur dalam bilik, tak penah tido kat hall. in short, if we really move out to rumah my family in law, memang segala rutin berubah. But lucky my mom kate, next year baru nak renovate. Sangat lega. At least time tu, Mommy pun dah bersalin, dah ade maid. Baby dah besar sket and Zaim pun dah semakin besar and bleh kot nak mendengar arahan Mommy - hopefully. So maybe tade masalah sngt nak handle. But the problem is, tade sape lak nak monitor maid kalo we move out from my mom house kan. PIL still keje. Caneee nii... ;( Tawakal to Allah jelah harap maid sangat buleh di harap.

• Recession, sedikit sebanyak bulan ni kami terkena tempiasnye. Harapnye tak lama tempias ni... Dah le kene bayar income tax lagi. Service kete lagi. Maid lagi. Dan lagi. Dan lagi.